Have you prayed about it...

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I have been very convicted lately, since I had Finn...
Am I really seeking the Lord in the way I parent? Or am I simply trying to do it on my own?

In a growth group I went to right before I had Finn, we talked about the abiding mom and the super mom. The abiding mom is following Christ while the super mom is following the world's idea of being a great mom. Considering that I already find myself feeling like I am a bad mom when my child is fussy, I know where I fall at the moment. My goal is to trust the Lord each day and each moment, KNOWING that I do not have what I need to raise this child apart from God...after all..what I want for him is a heart that loves the Lord and loves people...

SO...here it is.  It is actually from a cool blog called "Confessions of a Homeschooler", but I wanted to show it to you here.  It is so easy to find ourselves finding our self worth in the accomplishments or behavior of our children (Yes, even our four week olds...), and not in the Lord.  My prayers is that when I correct Finn in the future, I will be teaching him to be Godly, not just "GOOD".  That is a hard thing to remember.

Even as I go through my days now, my hope is to always be reminded of the joy I have in my life....and the blessings.  To find my joy and my self worth in Christ, and not in the success or behavior of my kids...or the perfection of my house...or the job I have {or don't have..}...

Every day in November, my friend Rebecca and I are going to share things we are thankful for.  We are both {attempting} to read the book "one thousand gifts"...so it is a good motivator to have thankful hearts.

Today mine was I was thankful to have a sweet boy sleeping on my chest.  A healthy, sweet boy.
As I took pictures of my sweet friend Kelsey's little guy, 3 weeks younger and less than half the size, I was reminded of little tiny Briar...and overcome with thankfulness that we got to know him, and then reminded of how blessed we are to have this healthy boy here to raise.  It reminds me what we are missing with Briar, but makes me that much more thankful for this little guy.