We went to a concert EVENT tonight.
It was incredible.
We left at 9:40 and they were not close to done.
But I was tired, and we just had to go!
I think most of the artists didn't know where they were. Most of them kept saying to the crowd, "Hey GEORGIA". and I thought, "you don't know where you are in Georgia, do you??"...
But, on another note, I couldn't stop thinking of my sweet friend Haley. Because David Crowder Band was there. And he was playing songs that I LOVE to worship to. That felt like I just sang in college YESTERDAY. Like this one: it makes me smile. It reminds me of when I would worship so desperately after we found out about Briar. But I knew the Lord was SO GOOD and loved us so much in the midst of this hurt.
He just takes my breath away. Even as I listen to this AGAIN tonight. SO powerful.
And then I think back to how many years ago that actually was (in college)...and I begin to feel as though I might be old. Well, older than I was. Wow. My throat is sore, as though I've been scratching it with a bristly brush all night. But the sore throat feels like nothing...in comparison to being among a HUGE body of believers. There were so many high schoolers there...again, something that made me feel a little old. And then there is the coming home at 9:45 while the rest of our friends (and the group of high schoolers from our church) stayed much later. I don't know why I bother to even mention any of that.
Because my favorite part of the night came next.
Something absolutely magical (in a very spiritual way) happened as David Crowder was finishing up. He was playing a song that was very upbeat as his last song. It was beautiful and fun. And then, all of a sudden...no warning..they tranistioned into "I'll Fly Away". As we sent the balloons off at Briar's celebration, and as Briar was taken out of our hospital room...that song was playing...and it is SO special. And as Brandon and I held each other tonight and sang this song...we both got teary...right in the middle of that dark, crowded coliseum...with probably a thousand or more people surrounding us...we just let it come. Because it was such a sweet moment to be in. We don't get many moments to feel as though we connect with our son. We don't get to cuddle him to sleep or hold him every night. But goodness, moments like that are SPECIAL. They weren't SAD tears, you see. Because that song talks about how when we die, we will fly away to be with our Savior. So that tears were joyous tears. Tears that know what our future holds. And that is time with our son. And to know that his little life was so precious.
We know how precious that time on earth is...and we will cherish our moments.
But let's be real.
Our time here is just a WHISPER.
Just a VAPOR of eternity.
Tomorrow I'll share with you what happened RIGHT AFTER that song...
Because it, too, changed my life.