Monday, July 5, 2010

Note to self...

Do not go on YOUTUBE and watch anencephalic babies' memorial videos.
It is not a good thing for your heart.
At all
Once you see one sad one, DO NOT click to another one.
And another.
You will end up a crying mess.

Today, I was reading 1 Peter 4:12 which says this:
"Beloved, do not think it strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened to you".
I didn't really understand, so I read it in the message.
"Friends, when life gets really difficult don't jump to the conclusion that God isn't on the job. Instead, be glad that you are in the very thick of what Christ experienced. This is a spiritual refining process, with glory right around the corner."
Wow.  Thanks.  I believe you Lord, in the midst of this. :)

(Funny how earlier in the day I am jolly self, and then this...that is how the days go...)


  1. I've been following your blog for awhile. I am not in the circumstance as you but I want to tell you I can relate (mine are fertility issues). I have been where you are. I know the place where you just wish you could close your eyes and everything would be better. Through my experience I have learned that God has plans for my life- and I needed to get in the passenger seat- instead of trying to control it all, with that I am now closer to Him than I have ever been. Through all the pain I learned a lesson I needed to learn, that I may not have known if that pain wasn't there. I'm still learning and going through this particular journey. Those times of tears are when I felt the closest to Him. I pray that you feel Him with you through this time in your life. I think about you and sweet Briar often during the week.

  2. Brooke,
    I've done the same thing, but I keep going back. I guess it gives me hope that others have gone through the same thing and come out stronger... and feel blessed by it. But, yes, I usually end up with a tear-stained face. And sometimes I watch a video because I need to cry, it feels so good let it out.

    My e-mail address is if you want to chat. I'd love to offer what little I have.

    Carried by Him,