This week at my school it is spirit week. Today we wear our favorite team. Do you know mine?? I had a little girl wear Kentucky too and I flipped out!! I was so excited :)
Monday was twin day. We wanted to be twins as a grade level, so we all wrote the same things and then Barbara and I put the baloons in our stomachs to look like sweet Rebecca (who you have seen in many pictures with her mom and hubby). Once again, that is NOT MY PREGNANT TUMMY.......it is a balloon. It was kind of sad, but kind of fun to have this big lump in my stomach.
The great news......my hubby arrived home on Tuesday. He came to my school and surprised me. He is so great!! He also brought these:
The not so great news....if you think your husband will fix your problems...he won't. He will help you and stand by you and love you. But he can't fix them. He can't even truly comfort you. I think I forgot that the Lord is the only one who can offer true comfort and hope. So I feel great that I can rejoice in my Lord alone. I want Brandon to fix things. He can't. But he can love me. And he does a great job of that.
Plus guys, especially Army guys...are really good at blocking out emotions. So even though he is hurting...he is still adjusting back to the American world as well as the WOMAN world of emotions. Oh man, he didn't know all he was missing! haha. Poor guy. He is praying for the ability to feel emotion. Imagine if you had that problem. :)
We found out yesterday we are having a boy. I didn't know quite how badly that would hurt. It hurt. It still does. Our first child...a little boy. It is heartbreaking. But we will get through it. We will persevere. I swear that every time I hear that song...."You never let go" ...I just bawl my eyes out. Especially during the part that says, "There will be a light that is coming for the heart that holds on. There will be an end...to this trouble...but utnil that day comes. ...still I will praise you......still I will praise you...." Bahhhh...it just makes me tear up thinking about it. The Lord is faithful even in these dark times.
Hear my cry, O God; listen to my prayer. From the end of the earth I call to you, when my heart is faint. Lead me to the rock that is higher than I; for you are my refuge, a strong tower against the enemy. Let me abide in your tent forever, find refuge under the shelter of your wings. [Selah] For you, O God, have heard my vows; you have given me the heritage of those who fear your name.
For God alone my soul waits in silence; from him comes my salvation. He alone is my rock and my salvation, my fortress; I shall never be shaken.
For God alone my soul waits in silence, for my hope is from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation, my fortress; I shall not be shaken. On God rests my deliverance and my honor; my mighty rock, my refuge is in God. Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him; God is a refuge for us.
-Psalm 61:1-5; 62:1-2, 5-8 (NRSV)